Escape the Universe

Since I don't know what to write (AND I DONT REALLY WANT TO WRITE ABOUT THE GRADUATION) I think I just want to post my new song i wrote 2 hours ago.

I use C, Dm, G, F, Em, Am on this song with different progression, I use no capo and It's standard tuning. Simple chords for the simple song.

I love this song so much, well i love all my songs... but this one makes me feel calm. After the graduation thing i feel so small, and i wish someone would sing this to me, but i realize that there are many people who needs so much love because they didnt have one. So, it;s kinda like a tribute..? i think so

Oh, and it's called Escape the Universe.

ESCAPE THE UNIVERSE

VERSE I

The world keeps spinning faster

The more you try to make it stop

The universe keeps blaming about

The things you did and you didn’t

BRIDGE

There’s a line that separate

A failure and a mistaken

You do think that’s the same thing, don’t you?

Well, I did

REFF

Have you ever tried to go to bed with a scar?

Or get punched on the face by a man in the bar?

Tried to heal the pain but it’s only getting worse

I once didn’t know the difference between those

You know there’s always a part in your life

Where you have to choose yourself

Or the things that makes you, you

VERSE II

You hate the things you used to be proud of

And fail at the things you used to do

Who knows what comes first in this life

The only thing that matters is what’ll you do in the end

BRIDGE

You let your skin touch the ground

As you’re trying to escape the universe

But hold on, fighter

You’re more than a piece of a paper

REFF

Have you ever tried to go to bed with a scar?

Or get punched on the face by a man in the bar?

Tried to heal the pain but it’s only getting worse

I once didn’t know the difference between those

You know there’s always a part in your life

Where you have to choose yourself

Or the things that makes you, you

*

There’s no reason to feel alive

There’s no way you can survive

You keep saying that in your head

But you know that’s not what I’ve said

REFF

I said, hey beautiful, don’t let your faith slip away

You might be the reason for someone to get to see another day

You can choose over yourself cause there is no one else

But that’s okay cause I’ll be the one who’ll make you, you

Don't worry

I’ll be the one who’ll make you, you

I'll be the one who'll make you, you

Happy 6th Birthday, Ronan!

Im not sure im gonna write a new post..
it may be the first time i write a post in the day.

it is May 12th, so im gonna show my RoLove to everyone.

Happy sixth birthday, Ronan. I will never ever ever (like, ever) forget your sparkly blue eyes, your spicey monkey, how you loved star wars so much, your cart racing, your cute smile, how you said i love you to your mom, how your eyes shined when you laughed. all those things. i never met you before, but i feel this connection between you and me. it's like, you showed me how to be a better person. i will never be the person i am today if it wasn't because of you. well im still acting like shit but i am proud to say i am better than i was before. i dont know what i would do in life if you didnt exist. i might be the person who always blame everyone around me and i might be the most selfish person that's ever walked in this damn earth. sorry for my damn word btw. i never thanked God enough for all the things He gave. and complaining for all the things He didnt. but i do now. well not enough. but better than before. And your mom, im thankful for knowing her even though i never met her in person. but i know she struggled, and still into this day. for you. she is the one who shows the world your magic. I love you guys so much, and i- i dont think words worth her tears. and mine. and all RoLovies' out there.

For one day, in my life, i just wanna be grateful for what i had and what i have now. because someday, it all will be gone. and maybe, i will be grateful for the tomorrow, then the day after tomorrow, and the next day, and maybe.. forever.

i believe in you. i believe in everything your mom fight for. i believe that someday cancer will be fucked. and i believe everyone's gonna know you, the boy who brings so much love into this world and because of you, i think there's hope for this humanity.

Thank you, Ronan. Thank you so much for just being alive in my heart, in every single one of us' hearts.

And it's Mothers Day. so Happy Mothers Day, Maya aka @RockstarRonan. you deserve all the love in this world. and thank you, Maya. thank you.

I love you guys with every single piece in my heart. and i will be forever grateful for just knowing you.

once again,

HAPPY 6th BIRTHDAY

RONAN SEAN THOMPSON!

I LOVE YOU TO THE WHOLE MOON AND BACK.

Sleep tight, army guy. You are forever loved.

oh my God, this picture is making me sad :(

He Got a Face to Call... HOME

i dont know exactly what to write . its almost 2 AM here and im still awake. i dont know why, but i just think..

maybe..

JUST maybe, ...

im.. uhm

i think.. just

i just think im in love

HAHAHA its messed up. im not sure but i think im in love. because i never felt like this. these whole new situations makes me so damn weird. im not gonna write about this boy but first of all, he's a stranger and i just know his name. well it starts with the leter C :$ im blushing.

but its sad how ill never meet him in my whole life. i cant write it because its too embarrassing  yet.

its the feeling that came along with butterflies ohcrap! fuck butterflies, i feel the whole zoo in my stomach whenever i think of him. the first thing i remember about him is his smile. its just too sweet in every way.

i never fell in love with anyone in past 3 years. i guess this is why i couldnt sleep these days. but knowing i will never ever (like, ever) meet him is the worst :(

alright...

it started when i went to the cinema alone. i dont know what to do so i guess go watch a movie is not a bad idea. and it wasn't a bad idea and probably the best idea ive ever thought. and i bought something to eat -which is unimportant-, and went in. i did doubt the movie because there was only idk maybe 20-25 people. in my row there were only me and an old man. he was a bit far from me.

THEN, this part.. this part...

then there was a boy coming sit 1 seat from me. i didnt notice because i didnt care. yet. then he looked at me but still, i didnt care. untiiiiiil he stared at me like WTH R U DOIN???! i gave him a look, for like 2 secs. then look away.

he moved and sat next to me and said "would you mind if i sit here?" not in english btw, and i said "nope". then he smiled. i repeat, he smiled. AT. ME. okay. no no that wasnt okay! then i giggled.

he started to ask my name and where i live and wheres my school and stuff. his name starts with the letter c, he takes homeschooling because his old school friends were kind of bullied him for being a nerd. then i asked him "you were a nerd? that kinda surprise me" he answered "well i was" he laughed. that was adorable, and cute. he seemed like a cool guy, i cant picture him with glasses and books, tho hahaha.

he asked me my number, then i picked my phone and realize my phone was out of battery. WHHYYYYYY????!!!!!!!!!! then he told me he didnt bring his phone with him. screw it all bcs kita ga apal yu know. and why the hell on this earth he didnt have ANY social networking like twitter or something. then i believed that he was a nerd. so we just talked and didnt even look to the screen. screw the movie. it was bad. but WORTH MY MONEY!! :))))

the movie was over and i wish it would be a bit longer but screw it. we walked out and he said he came with his brother and his brother had kind of date so he chose to watch a movie. well nice choice ;) so after that, he touched my shoulder and said "it was nice to know you. i wish we could meet someday, maybe" should i repeat that again? no? okay. i kind of lost my breath and said "i hope so" then he walked away and waved. at. me. i waved back and he was gone.

it cant get out of my mind. how he smiles how he laughs how he says his dream is to be a soldier because he's tall enough (he's a lil bit taller than me). he's adorable. everything about him is beautiful. and cute. and amazing.

i know the fact he's just like a fantasy i couldnt have. but i know this for sure, im fallin in love. since that day, he put a smile on me. its crazy. yet everything seemed fine.

then one thing i keep on saying to myself is:

When you're far away from home, you'll always find your way back. And when you finally found someone you can call home, no matter how far they are, they'll find their way back to you. Because somehow, you become someone's home.

 

The Day Before Yesterday. What does it called?

it's midnight. in here. i can't sleep (like, always).
not yesterday because i used "10 hours rain sound" as my relaxation. it worked. ive never fell asleep so easily like that. but the thing i have to deal with is the broken audio on my laptop and now im awake like an idiot.

maybe i just have to share what happened today.

so here's what happens...

absolutely, nothing.

crap!

well, i just woke up in the morning and eat, and youtube-ing until my audio isnt working, and um watching fashion police, and tukang bubur naik haji (yay), and nothing. like an ordinary day.

sooooo i think im gonna write things i 2 days before yesterday.

on wednesday, i found it hard because my friend's father died and it must have been really hard for her. and i feel you, my friend. i feel you.

it was raining in in my house so i just thought it was good to write a song. that song is called My Window. because i wrote it near my window, lol. My Window was my 9th song and i really proud of it. i do really proud of all my songs but i dont know why i just proud of the story of this song.

its about seeing a girl -a little girl actually- dancing and singing. and really moved by her moves. then her daddy comes and grab her and go. but she feels sad. and she doesnt want to be with her dad. and shes gone.

its not an real story. its not happen in my real life. this idea just came up on me as the rain falls. so i just think it will be a good song to write about. i use C Major scale. at the first, i used D major scale but i found it hard because my voice couldnt reach it haha because i cant sing.

this is just a random song because i was bored and didnt have things to do so, i just wrote it. simple song but i really really really proud of this one

SOO i think im gonna post the lyrics (and maybe it will make me fall asleep), here:

My Window

VERSE I

There’s a little girl outside my window

She’s dancing around the parking lot

She smiles a little as the wind blows

Singing loud without a doubt

She finishes her dancing and take a bow

Isn't she feel so cold like i am now?

BRIDGE  

Then there’s an old man coming

He grabs her wrist and go

Like a father take her daughter to go to school

But i see her smile disappears...

REFF

Oh let the moon be the spotlight when you dance

Show the stars your beautiful voice

And darkness, don’t mind darkness

Just put on a smile and do your best moves

Oh, little girl... you shouldn’t be gone so fast

VERSE II 

She’s walking in front of me on the parking lot

I wave at her and she smiles

BRIDGE

Then that old man comes and say, “let’s go”

I say, “why?” and she cries like a newborns baby

He looks at me in the eye and say, “go away!”

I take her hand and say, “i’m not letting her go”

REFF

He says, “Stay the hell away from my daughter!”

I say, “I didn’t do anything!’

She says, “I don’t want to be with you, daddy!”

Then he pushes me til i fall to the ground

Whoa, whoa

All i hear is footsteps...

As the rain falls...

I lay my hand on my chest

Wishing i could clean up all this mess

Oh little girl... you shouldn’t be gone, you shouldn’t be gone...

REFF 

Oh let the moon be the spotlight when you dance

Show the stars your beautiful voice

And darkness, don’t mind darkness

Just put on a smile and do your best moves

Oh, little girl... you shouldn’t be gone so fast

VERSE III/ENDING 

I stare at my window for like 3 hours

Wishing you would show me your new moves

i used usual chords on this. not like my song Faded. maybe because it only took 35 minutes. this isnt so good  i know, i really need to learn more and listen to so many songs on so many genre to increase my songwriting skill cause hey im still 15 still trying figure things out. i started to learn to write jazz songs on my unfinished song It's Us To Blame. its unfinished because its hard to synchronize jazz chords. using 7 pattern on chords are not my things. maybe, just maybe i will finish that song, though. hahaha

i think im starting to feel sleepy. so good-middle-night my non-exist-readers! have yourself a comfortable sleep :) cause i think i will

Love,

Gendis,

AKA

John Mayer's wifey

its time for....... Guilty Pleasures!

im pretty sure no one even read my blog but if there are...
you may think im crazy because i post 3 damn posts in one night, but i think this blog becomes my addiction to write my thoughts. so....

tonight im gonna post my own guilty pleasures. gosh, im not ready.

alright.

guilty pleasure, i like sucking my left thumb until my 6th grade. and i cant stop.

damn. weird

guilty pleasure, i always stalk @SBYudhoyono aka my president for some reasons like im daydreaming i won some competition and he mentioned me on twitter. oh my God.

im so done with myself. nexttt

guilty pleasure, i LOVE @cakkanrg. like. a. lot. he's like one of my celebrity crushes. i hope no one reads this. #prayingcircle

okay.....

guilty pleasure, i always sing in my bathroom when no one's home. i dont mean singing. its more like shouting. cause it's noisy. and i suck at singing. i cant sing. and i once brought my guitar into my bathroom.

i cant believe i write this.

guilty pleasure, i have sooooo many Justin Bieber songs. okay im so ashamed at this one. i hate him okay. but some of his musics are...... cool. damn, my friends at school will laugh at me if they read this.

OH MY GOD SHAME ON MEEEEEE.

the last one!! guilty pleasure............... i...... like... one TV show.. and.... oh my God. uhm, okay. i like, i mean, i LOVE Tukang Bubur Naik Haji. okay, make fun of it all you want. but i cant stop watching this thing!!!!! bos romlah is probably my fav character. and yet, shes funny. k.


thats it. oh my God. im so ashamed but lega you know.

k then, goodnight people.

love,
gendissw
aka
weirdest person thats ever touched the earth.

ugh

the girl i talk about in my last post is my old friend too. i dont know where her school now, and i dont care. i didnt get in touch with her for a while. then she came and mad at me like seriously?????????????

i think the whole universe dont even care about this post. cause it's so damn unimportant. aaaaaaahh.

the thing is i cant sleep, so i post random posts.

i want to sleep. clearly.

huh, k

people calls it holiday, i call it ordinary-days-without-uniforms

so, i, uhm.. it's 21.47 here. no it's 21.48. shit now it's 21.49. whatever. it's getting colder here as i put on my socks. i never wear socks at night before. weird. yea.

fever sucks. i want to spend my holidays going to some places, watching movies, eating as many as i can, and all those things people do in holiday. sitting in front the computer screen is the worst. which i shouldnt anyway. my mom would kill me.

some things bother me today. i mean, im not over those whole damn exam things then i got this not-really-matter-but-cant-get-our-of-ma-head thing. thats ok bc no one reads my blog.

couple days ago i went to watch a movie with my hardcore friends, lol at that hardcore. we had fun. but thats not the problem. the thing is, my friend's friend (which is mine too) didnt like it. you know, like i shouldnt have gone with my friends. (REALLY?!!) like, wut? i can go out with everyone i want and you have no damn right. i really want to confront her. no im just kidding. this girl is my friend's old friend. and they're not as close as they used to. i feel sorry, okay? & i really did my best to help her soooooo many times. but.................................... really? i cant go out with my friends just to having fun?

no

uh probably not

na, ah

i dont think so

you got a BIG NO (+10000 exclamation points)

right? is it my fault that somebody who used to close to you feel more comfortable around me?? people changes, sweetheart. im not mad (well, kinda), but this cant get out of my mind. im just sick. and not in a good way. i guess it disgusts me. it really is.

and now i think my radio is broken. what a perfect holiday.
ps, my grammar sucks

dunno why i write this

uhm, so apparently John Mayer and Taylor Swift aka my fav people evah are on tour.

well, thats good.

i mean ...

HOW CAN MY FAV MUSICIANS ARE ON TOUR AND MEET THOSE BUNCH OF PEOPLE AND IM STILL STUCKIN IN MY DAMN COUNTRY???????? LIKE, THIS COUNTRY IS MORE LIKE NARNIA IN REAL LIFE.

man, this bothers me so much.\

but..

i hope the tour goes well

and indonesian promotors better be aware.

I NEED BORN AND RAISED TOUR AND RED TOUR IN MY COUNTRYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok.

my blog is reborn, i guess

i never thought it's been 2 years or more (i cant remember) since i wrote the last post. im kind of worry with my randomness in my recent posts haha. its weird i know. but im proud to say im growin u and mature now, yea.

im pretty sure no one reads this and the next post ill write. so, it wouldnt be weird to write my thoughts here.

ok.

well, i dont know where to start. but first im sorry for my grammar. but i swear its not that bad, though.

it started last month actually. i had this kind of nerve before national exam. its normal, but very unusual for me. i couldnt sleep at night. the last time i had insomnia was 1 or 2 years ago, idk. i didnt eat for a day. yes, no eat. but no, im not on a diet. i was sweating more than usual.

at first, i thought everyone felt the same way. but not until i saw everyone acted usual, ya know, like nothing happened. i was like, "seriously? does that fuckin thing didnt even cross your mind for once?" i kept saying that in my mind for hours, until i asked one of my friends.

"we're gonna face the national exam in 2 weeks. are you nervous?"
"yea, but no, not really"
"are you prepared already? cause, damn that thing keep me awake"
"come on, i dont need to study. i use the leaked asnwers, idiot"
"oh, right. okay"

shit. i shoulda known. yes, that was our convo. but no, we were not talkin in english, we're not that smart.

the next couple days were the worst. people kept asking me if i want to 'join' them. damn, i almost did because im scared as hell. so i refused. but at the end of the day, i kept thinking about "what if i fail? what if i didnt make it? what if those stupid people got the higher score than me?" (im not sorry for the stupid word). that was the worst thing that could happen.

no

No way

NO WAYYYYYY

i dont like studying. not a fan of book. but.... ahh.

i studied in the next day. not so hard, but i TRIEDDD!!

went to school was 1 of the worst things ive ever did. people kept talking about that damn things. u know.

damn

one day before exam, i had this damn fever. i couldnt sleep. i slept on 3.25 AM. good. the words "what if i didnt make it" echoed in my mind. ugh.

i tweeted @rockstarronan aka Maya Thompson aka the best mother in the whole universe, and she replied. I FREAKED OUT! like, really. it would be the good pillow to sleep on. it was. i fell asleep. oh good times.

the first 3 days were fine.

UNTIL

THE

FOURTH

DAY

fuck. i couldnt believe. i got stucked. couldnt find the answers. i blamed all of these to the govv!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

that made me scared as hell. after the exam, everyone seemed right. LIKE REALLY?!! DID SCIENCE SCARE YOU LIKE IT SCARE ME??!! probably not. gosh, i felt like crying.

i went home and threw my shoes then lied on the bed. and these things came to my mind. crap.

"ive been studying since i was 13yo. 3 years i went to school and came back home. every fucking day. i learned some shit i didnt even want to know. i got punished by those teachers. i had fight with my friends. stucked in these stupid dramas. im tired. i want to move on. the thing is, can i? the fourth day scares me the most. what if i couldnt get the school i wanted. what if my new school is a crap. and those people get things they wanted without some hard works?"

everything sucks.

it sucks enough to make me end this post. really

Seven-One Punya Kita! :')

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1. *pelajaranbiologi* bu siti: nomer 11 jawabanya b.. aldi: apa bu? d? bu siti "b"! "B"ego! gua: b? b itukan biawak? anak2: *ngakak*

2. *belistirahat* busiti: jadi kingdom plantae .... gua: bel bu bel.. busiti: yaudah sono keluar sendiri sana istirahat gua: *cemingdikit* eh maksudnya tuh kan nomer 15 jawabanya b jadinya bel hehe :D veda: bisabet bisa hahaha

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7. pa edi: ketiga sudut segitiga itu jumlah nya harus ... *hapebunyi* *lagubaby* gua: *teriak* cie belieber!! haha veda+aden: belieber hahahahaha dinar: mangapa si elah?! -_- gua: yee marah mentang2 situ belieber! dinar: *mukagaselo*  anak2: *ngakak* pa edi: *tampangcengo*

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inget ...

SEVEN-ONE PUNYA KITA! :'D