He Got a Face to Call... HOME

i dont know exactly what to write . its almost 2 AM here and im still awake. i dont know why, but i just think..

maybe..

JUST maybe, ...

im.. uhm

i think.. just

i just think im in love

HAHAHA its messed up. im not sure but i think im in love. because i never felt like this. these whole new situations makes me so damn weird. im not gonna write about this boy but first of all, he's a stranger and i just know his name. well it starts with the leter C :$ im blushing.

but its sad how ill never meet him in my whole life. i cant write it because its too embarrassing  yet.

its the feeling that came along with butterflies ohcrap! fuck butterflies, i feel the whole zoo in my stomach whenever i think of him. the first thing i remember about him is his smile. its just too sweet in every way.

i never fell in love with anyone in past 3 years. i guess this is why i couldnt sleep these days. but knowing i will never ever (like, ever) meet him is the worst :(

alright...

it started when i went to the cinema alone. i dont know what to do so i guess go watch a movie is not a bad idea. and it wasn't a bad idea and probably the best idea ive ever thought. and i bought something to eat -which is unimportant-, and went in. i did doubt the movie because there was only idk maybe 20-25 people. in my row there were only me and an old man. he was a bit far from me.

THEN, this part.. this part...

then there was a boy coming sit 1 seat from me. i didnt notice because i didnt care. yet. then he looked at me but still, i didnt care. untiiiiiil he stared at me like WTH R U DOIN???! i gave him a look, for like 2 secs. then look away.

he moved and sat next to me and said "would you mind if i sit here?" not in english btw, and i said "nope". then he smiled. i repeat, he smiled. AT. ME. okay. no no that wasnt okay! then i giggled.

he started to ask my name and where i live and wheres my school and stuff. his name starts with the letter c, he takes homeschooling because his old school friends were kind of bullied him for being a nerd. then i asked him "you were a nerd? that kinda surprise me" he answered "well i was" he laughed. that was adorable, and cute. he seemed like a cool guy, i cant picture him with glasses and books, tho hahaha.

he asked me my number, then i picked my phone and realize my phone was out of battery. WHHYYYYYY????!!!!!!!!!! then he told me he didnt bring his phone with him. screw it all bcs kita ga apal yu know. and why the hell on this earth he didnt have ANY social networking like twitter or something. then i believed that he was a nerd. so we just talked and didnt even look to the screen. screw the movie. it was bad. but WORTH MY MONEY!! :))))

the movie was over and i wish it would be a bit longer but screw it. we walked out and he said he came with his brother and his brother had kind of date so he chose to watch a movie. well nice choice ;) so after that, he touched my shoulder and said "it was nice to know you. i wish we could meet someday, maybe" should i repeat that again? no? okay. i kind of lost my breath and said "i hope so" then he walked away and waved. at. me. i waved back and he was gone.

it cant get out of my mind. how he smiles how he laughs how he says his dream is to be a soldier because he's tall enough (he's a lil bit taller than me). he's adorable. everything about him is beautiful. and cute. and amazing.

i know the fact he's just like a fantasy i couldnt have. but i know this for sure, im fallin in love. since that day, he put a smile on me. its crazy. yet everything seemed fine.

then one thing i keep on saying to myself is:

When you're far away from home, you'll always find your way back. And when you finally found someone you can call home, no matter how far they are, they'll find their way back to you. Because somehow, you become someone's home.